For The Living

Wake up to the knowledge that you are living. There is life in you. A beautiful, dangerous, and fierce life. You can feel, can't you? Like a fire deep down in your soul.

From the day you were born, no, actually way before that. You see, you are God's dream. He dreamed you up, He imagined you, shaped, and designed you before you were ever anyone else's dream. So, while you were God's dream, you were already a threat. A gift to this world and a threat to the devil.

My sisters, my friends to put this bluntly...the devil's main goal is to completely destroy you. There is no gray area for him in this, and he will use anything to keep your life from being lived. Fear, abuse, bad relationships, pride, drugs, sex, isolation, addictions. He will send one avalanche of lies after another to corrupt your mind. He will throw grenade after grenade of pain and sickness. THERE IS NO GRAY AREA FOR HIM WITH THIS!

So, what do we do? How do we fight back? WE STAND! We stand hard and keep putting one foot in front of the other and speak and declare that we will not stop! We will not break! We will keep moving forward! Why! BECAUSE THE GREATER ONE LIVES IN US! The Greater One is the giver and protector of our life. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! You are not alone...that may be the first lie that you will have to overcome.

There was a span of 5 years of my life where I was in and out of depression. I lost a lot of weight. I was down to a size 2 in some clothes. I battled with suicidal thoughts. I was so lonely that I literally hurt. I literally felt pain from the loneliness. I was disappointed and angry. My days were dark and my nights were darker. I was tired physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. There were plenty of nights where I cried myself to sleep, and I would just pray " God help me."

There was this one particular night where I had hit rock bottom emotionally, maybe even a little mentally. I found myself in a deep pit. It was dark, cold, and ugly. I took a knife and held it to my wrist, and just stared at it through my tear filled eyes. A part of me thinking just do it Brittany, just do it. And another part of me thinking My God, you need help. I reached for my phone...but who do I call? A few people went through my head, but I called the one person who was more than likely to pick up at that time. My friend, brother, and personal hero of mine. He answered...he heard me. He truly heard me. I can't remember what I said to him or everything that he said to me. But I know he prayed over me, and he wasn't going to hang up the phone until he knew it was safe to. He didn't know that pretty much the whole time he was talking to me I had that knife in my hand at my wrist. God saved me that night. And my friend, brother, and hero...well he is still changing this world one life at a time. Much love to him.

I shared that because so many extraordinary people do not know that they are extraordinary. They do not know that they have life on the inside of them. A life that is a gift and a weapon.

My God! What would happen if we would all be aware of this?! What would happen if we would all dare to believe that we are fully able to live alive?! Our life is not our own. There is fire, joy, ferocious love, magic, and unimaginable beauty inside of YOU. BELIEVE IT! LIVE IT! If you want to awaken to this just ask God in your own way to wake you up. Stir yourself, start moving. Surround yourself with positive people who help you along and believe in you.

You don't have to be afraid. You are not alone. Lovely one...take your stand! Stand on the truth and not your feelings. Lift up your voice and roar...I WILL LIVE ALIVE!!!