Last year I began a journey of rediscovering my life. I started a blog about it, and my first post was titled My Reality. I few of you might have read it.
I started this journey because my life had taken unfamiliar twists and turns that I did not respond to so well. My reality was not at all what I thought it would be. If you have read or plan to read it, you may sense a lot of hurt and disappointment in my words. I know that was what I was experiencing at that time. My question, my cry was, GOD, WHAT IS MY REALITY?! That was written May 31st of last year. I want to fast forward to this year. So much can change and has changed in a year.
The event that I am about to share with you occurred sometime last month. It was a Sunday morning, and I along with others were at church, engaged in worship. We are in the face of the one and only God. His presence is sweet and strong. Oh, how He loves us, His children.
We began to sing Awesome God over and over again. At this point I was engulfed by Love Himself. Everyone and everything vanished. All I cared about was the Father, who I was beholding. The song kept playing and we kept singing :
" Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above with wisdom..."
What happened next, I will never forget. God showed me a vision of me and Him. I was in a white dress, His hand in mine, and He was twirling me around. Over and over again...around and around I went. As he was twirling me I was laughing joyfully and smiling. The smile on my Father's face, and the joy in His eyes are indescribable. Then I heard Him say words that will be forever burned on my heart..."This is your reality." Then I saw me sitting on my Father's lap. As He gently stroked my hair, I heard Him say again, "This is your reality"
I began to cry a cry that was trapped inside of me for a long time. As the tears flowed, my heart was being healed. Oh, my God, How you love us so, Your children. How you love us.
You see dear ones, It's love that changes everything, and I am convinced that it will be Love that continues to change me.
Now some of you may not understand my words,or see God as a Father who loves to twirl His daughter. I pass no judgement to you, just a smile and a simple prayer. May you be awakened to the Love that is yours and has always been yours.
For years, my eyes were on the temporal. My trust and hope were on things that would not last. My reality is not of this world or the things of it or the people in it. From love I came, In love I live, and to love I will return.
My reality is Love.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Love
The cravings of love can not be tamed, dissolved, or destroyed.
Made for love and from Love itself...this is our very reason of being.
We exist only because of Love. So our cravings, desires, and dreams of Love are only natural.
Love is a great mountain...immovable and massive.
Love is the roaring sea...deep and vast!
Love is the setting sun...breathtaking and peaceful.
Love is a lion...stunning and fierce!
Love is a newborn babe....beautiful and pure.
Love is a weapon! Abolishing hatred and fear!
Love is the Creator and Love is in creation.
We are not without Love. Because we fail to realize we have it, we forfeit all that it can accomplish in and
through us.
Love does not need to be awakened in us...we need to be awakened to the Love that is in us.
An awakening of one person can lead to an awakening of another, and another, and another.
Love is oxygen...Breathe in... Breathe out. Do you feel that?
Love is in you and Love is in me.
Sisters, daughters, mothers, and friends...when we finally awaken to the raw, untamed, pure, free, wild, and living Love that has been inside of us since our first breath...WE WILL BE AN ARMY UNSTOPPABLE!!!
Made for love and from Love itself...this is our very reason of being.
We exist only because of Love. So our cravings, desires, and dreams of Love are only natural.
Love is a great mountain...immovable and massive.
Love is the roaring sea...deep and vast!
Love is the setting sun...breathtaking and peaceful.
Love is a lion...stunning and fierce!
Love is a newborn babe....beautiful and pure.
Love is a weapon! Abolishing hatred and fear!
Love is the Creator and Love is in creation.
We are not without Love. Because we fail to realize we have it, we forfeit all that it can accomplish in and
through us.
Love does not need to be awakened in us...we need to be awakened to the Love that is in us.
An awakening of one person can lead to an awakening of another, and another, and another.
Love is oxygen...Breathe in... Breathe out. Do you feel that?
Love is in you and Love is in me.
Sisters, daughters, mothers, and friends...when we finally awaken to the raw, untamed, pure, free, wild, and living Love that has been inside of us since our first breath...WE WILL BE AN ARMY UNSTOPPABLE!!!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
For The Living
Wake up to the knowledge that you are living. There is life in you. A beautiful, dangerous, and fierce life. You can feel, can't you? Like a fire deep down in your soul.
From the day you were born, no, actually way before that. You see, you are God's dream. He dreamed you up, He imagined you, shaped, and designed you before you were ever anyone else's dream. So, while you were God's dream, you were already a threat. A gift to this world and a threat to the devil.
My sisters, my friends to put this bluntly...the devil's main goal is to completely destroy you. There is no gray area for him in this, and he will use anything to keep your life from being lived. Fear, abuse, bad relationships, pride, drugs, sex, isolation, addictions. He will send one avalanche of lies after another to corrupt your mind. He will throw grenade after grenade of pain and sickness. THERE IS NO GRAY AREA FOR HIM WITH THIS!
So, what do we do? How do we fight back? WE STAND! We stand hard and keep putting one foot in front of the other and speak and declare that we will not stop! We will not break! We will keep moving forward! Why! BECAUSE THE GREATER ONE LIVES IN US! The Greater One is the giver and protector of our life. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! You are not alone...that may be the first lie that you will have to overcome.
There was a span of 5 years of my life where I was in and out of depression. I lost a lot of weight. I was down to a size 2 in some clothes. I battled with suicidal thoughts. I was so lonely that I literally hurt. I literally felt pain from the loneliness. I was disappointed and angry. My days were dark and my nights were darker. I was tired physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. There were plenty of nights where I cried myself to sleep, and I would just pray " God help me."
There was this one particular night where I had hit rock bottom emotionally, maybe even a little mentally. I found myself in a deep pit. It was dark, cold, and ugly. I took a knife and held it to my wrist, and just stared at it through my tear filled eyes. A part of me thinking just do it Brittany, just do it. And another part of me thinking My God, you need help. I reached for my phone...but who do I call? A few people went through my head, but I called the one person who was more than likely to pick up at that time. My friend, brother, and personal hero of mine. He answered...he heard me. He truly heard me. I can't remember what I said to him or everything that he said to me. But I know he prayed over me, and he wasn't going to hang up the phone until he knew it was safe to. He didn't know that pretty much the whole time he was talking to me I had that knife in my hand at my wrist. God saved me that night. And my friend, brother, and hero...well he is still changing this world one life at a time. Much love to him.
I shared that because so many extraordinary people do not know that they are extraordinary. They do not know that they have life on the inside of them. A life that is a gift and a weapon.
My God! What would happen if we would all be aware of this?! What would happen if we would all dare to believe that we are fully able to live alive?! Our life is not our own. There is fire, joy, ferocious love, magic, and unimaginable beauty inside of YOU. BELIEVE IT! LIVE IT! If you want to awaken to this just ask God in your own way to wake you up. Stir yourself, start moving. Surround yourself with positive people who help you along and believe in you.
You don't have to be afraid. You are not alone. Lovely one...take your stand! Stand on the truth and not your feelings. Lift up your voice and roar...I WILL LIVE ALIVE!!!
From the day you were born, no, actually way before that. You see, you are God's dream. He dreamed you up, He imagined you, shaped, and designed you before you were ever anyone else's dream. So, while you were God's dream, you were already a threat. A gift to this world and a threat to the devil.
My sisters, my friends to put this bluntly...the devil's main goal is to completely destroy you. There is no gray area for him in this, and he will use anything to keep your life from being lived. Fear, abuse, bad relationships, pride, drugs, sex, isolation, addictions. He will send one avalanche of lies after another to corrupt your mind. He will throw grenade after grenade of pain and sickness. THERE IS NO GRAY AREA FOR HIM WITH THIS!
So, what do we do? How do we fight back? WE STAND! We stand hard and keep putting one foot in front of the other and speak and declare that we will not stop! We will not break! We will keep moving forward! Why! BECAUSE THE GREATER ONE LIVES IN US! The Greater One is the giver and protector of our life. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! You are not alone...that may be the first lie that you will have to overcome.
There was a span of 5 years of my life where I was in and out of depression. I lost a lot of weight. I was down to a size 2 in some clothes. I battled with suicidal thoughts. I was so lonely that I literally hurt. I literally felt pain from the loneliness. I was disappointed and angry. My days were dark and my nights were darker. I was tired physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. There were plenty of nights where I cried myself to sleep, and I would just pray " God help me."
There was this one particular night where I had hit rock bottom emotionally, maybe even a little mentally. I found myself in a deep pit. It was dark, cold, and ugly. I took a knife and held it to my wrist, and just stared at it through my tear filled eyes. A part of me thinking just do it Brittany, just do it. And another part of me thinking My God, you need help. I reached for my phone...but who do I call? A few people went through my head, but I called the one person who was more than likely to pick up at that time. My friend, brother, and personal hero of mine. He answered...he heard me. He truly heard me. I can't remember what I said to him or everything that he said to me. But I know he prayed over me, and he wasn't going to hang up the phone until he knew it was safe to. He didn't know that pretty much the whole time he was talking to me I had that knife in my hand at my wrist. God saved me that night. And my friend, brother, and hero...well he is still changing this world one life at a time. Much love to him.
I shared that because so many extraordinary people do not know that they are extraordinary. They do not know that they have life on the inside of them. A life that is a gift and a weapon.
My God! What would happen if we would all be aware of this?! What would happen if we would all dare to believe that we are fully able to live alive?! Our life is not our own. There is fire, joy, ferocious love, magic, and unimaginable beauty inside of YOU. BELIEVE IT! LIVE IT! If you want to awaken to this just ask God in your own way to wake you up. Stir yourself, start moving. Surround yourself with positive people who help you along and believe in you.
You don't have to be afraid. You are not alone. Lovely one...take your stand! Stand on the truth and not your feelings. Lift up your voice and roar...I WILL LIVE ALIVE!!!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Mirror Mirror
You are splendid! Did you know that about yourself? Splendid in every way. Go to the mirror and look at yourself. Look yourself straight in the eyes. What do you see? What are the thoughts towards yourself? Do you see hair that is too short, too frizzy, too nappy, too straight, or entirely the wrong color? Or do you see hair in places where you feel that you shouldn't have hair at all?! Are you looking at untamed eyebrows, or scared skin? Do you see chipped nails, fat rolls, or imperfect teeth? Sisters, what do you see? What mirror are you looking in? Whose eyes are you seeing with?
Do you see how splendid you are? No? Well, most of the time I don't see myself that way either. I daily fight off feelings of inadequacy, and insecurity. If I let them, my feelings, and thoughts will quickly lead me to a place of solitude and darkness.
Sisters, daughters, mothers, friends...NOW IS THE TIME TO BELIEVE IN WHO YOU REALLY ARE. I am a warrior princess, and I whole heartily believe that! I am strong, a protector, and a nurturer. These are gifts from God that I use to worship Him and to serve those around me.
WHO ARE YOU? You see sisters, the Word of God is our mirror. Look in your mirror, and tell me what you see. What does this mirror say about you?
You are lovely! You are a life giver. You are more than. You are not weak, but you stand and live in strength that only comes from The King. You have the mind of Christ. Do not ever believe you are stupid. You are worth waiting for. You are the crown of creation. You are more beautiful than all the stars in sky. You are powerful and fierce. You are dangerous. You are a deadly weapon. You are tender. You are fiercely loved, and thought of. God dreams for you. He intercedes for you. You are a bride! You are royalty, a Princess of the Most High God. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SETTLE! You are uniquely designed, and carefully put together.
You see, it doesn't matter how others see you, and sometimes most of all, it doesn't matter how you see yourself. What matters is the truth about who you are. And God is truth. Know God and know the truth about yourself.
This world is in desperate need of our gifts and our strength. We are an answer to a problem. Not THE answer, but an answer. What are we doing with our gifts, and our strength? How are we treating and caring for each other? Are we embracing each other, and bearing up each others load? Are we encouraging, and challenging each other, and loving each other? Or are we so caught up in our insecurities that we are intimidated by each other? Are we giving each other the stank eye and coveting what the other has? Are we gossiping and tearing each other down? SISTERS! WE ARE NOT EACH OTHERS ENEMY! The devil is our enemy! He is out to utterly obliterate us...and we have got to fight! We will not fight like men or in our own strength. We are women! WE WILL FIGHT LIKE GIRLS AND IN THE POWER OF THE MOST HIGH GOD!
So let us take up the Sword of Truth and run toward the battle! It's already won! Victory is ours because victory belongs to our Lord!
We don't have to be afraid of each other or compete against each other. It's time to embrace. It's time to take hands. It's time to love.
We need each other, and the world needs us. Sisters it's time to be fully awake and to FIGHT LIKE GIRLS!
Do you see how splendid you are? No? Well, most of the time I don't see myself that way either. I daily fight off feelings of inadequacy, and insecurity. If I let them, my feelings, and thoughts will quickly lead me to a place of solitude and darkness.
Sisters, daughters, mothers, friends...NOW IS THE TIME TO BELIEVE IN WHO YOU REALLY ARE. I am a warrior princess, and I whole heartily believe that! I am strong, a protector, and a nurturer. These are gifts from God that I use to worship Him and to serve those around me.
WHO ARE YOU? You see sisters, the Word of God is our mirror. Look in your mirror, and tell me what you see. What does this mirror say about you?
You are lovely! You are a life giver. You are more than. You are not weak, but you stand and live in strength that only comes from The King. You have the mind of Christ. Do not ever believe you are stupid. You are worth waiting for. You are the crown of creation. You are more beautiful than all the stars in sky. You are powerful and fierce. You are dangerous. You are a deadly weapon. You are tender. You are fiercely loved, and thought of. God dreams for you. He intercedes for you. You are a bride! You are royalty, a Princess of the Most High God. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SETTLE! You are uniquely designed, and carefully put together.
You see, it doesn't matter how others see you, and sometimes most of all, it doesn't matter how you see yourself. What matters is the truth about who you are. And God is truth. Know God and know the truth about yourself.
This world is in desperate need of our gifts and our strength. We are an answer to a problem. Not THE answer, but an answer. What are we doing with our gifts, and our strength? How are we treating and caring for each other? Are we embracing each other, and bearing up each others load? Are we encouraging, and challenging each other, and loving each other? Or are we so caught up in our insecurities that we are intimidated by each other? Are we giving each other the stank eye and coveting what the other has? Are we gossiping and tearing each other down? SISTERS! WE ARE NOT EACH OTHERS ENEMY! The devil is our enemy! He is out to utterly obliterate us...and we have got to fight! We will not fight like men or in our own strength. We are women! WE WILL FIGHT LIKE GIRLS AND IN THE POWER OF THE MOST HIGH GOD!
So let us take up the Sword of Truth and run toward the battle! It's already won! Victory is ours because victory belongs to our Lord!
We don't have to be afraid of each other or compete against each other. It's time to embrace. It's time to take hands. It's time to love.
We need each other, and the world needs us. Sisters it's time to be fully awake and to FIGHT LIKE GIRLS!
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